Today is October 25, my due date.
And there's a very good chance I will be having this baby today since we're hoping to get induced this morning.
A baby. Like a real little human! I can barely wrap my mind around that. I know I've been feeling her wiggle around in there since May, and we got the positive test back in February, but still. I can't believe that we're just hours away from meeting this little one.
I am slightly terrified, but mostly really excited. Excited to meet this baby; excited to be done with pregnancy; excited to start this next chapter; excited to see my husband become a father; excited to bring her home and start our family of five (yes, the dogs are included!).
I am definitely nervous about the birth. I'm worried about bringing her home to two dogs who won't really know what's going on and turning their little worlds upside down. And of course I'm afraid that I won't know what to do with this little person that we've been blessed with.
A dear friend texted me the exact words I needed to hear last night when I was on my 15th tissue of the night, crying my eyes out. She said, " It's overwhelming, to say the least. It's like saying goodbye to one part of your life and opening the door to the most amazing thing you'll ever experience." I think she said it best. I'm so afraid of leaving this old part of me behind. It's who I've been for 28 years. I don't know anything else. But I have to remind myself that my fears are just that, fears. There is something amazing waiting for me...for us...on the other side of those fears.
I have a pretty good feeling that we're going to be a-okay. I know we're in good hands and He is watching over us and this baby He's blessed us with. And we're also surrounded by family and friends who will love and help us at this time.
Hopefully next time I'm updating this blog, I'll be able to tell you that our baby is here!