Thursday, April 18, 2013

Embracing the Camera: Week 4 / "Do you miss teaching"

It's been a tough week here. We're dealing with some nap time troubles and a bit of a fussy baby. Who knows what's causing it, but it just hasn't been our best week. I've broken down and cried a few times. Once to my husband, once to my mom, and once in the glider with my baby in my arms as she cried back at me and smacked me in the face with her little hands as she protested another nap.

However...with all of that said, I still can't imagine doing anything else during the day. I adore being home with this little girl, on good and bad days. A lot of people have asked me if I miss teaching, and honestly...no. I think some of my fellow educators will understand what I'm saying here. I miss the kids and the fun moments and the activities we'd do together. And I miss celebrating little victories with a student who had been struggling with something for so long, and then seeing them master it. Those were awesome pieces to the job and I do miss that. But I definitely don't miss the stress and pressures that came with the job. The high stakes testing, the lesson plans, the data collection, the never ending emails. Sadly, when I think about my former profession, it's the latter that come to my mind, not the good things. When I stop and think about those things, and then think about the place I am in now, I realize just how lucky I am. Being a mom is a hard job. And I mean that for a stay at home mom OR a working mom. No doubt about it, but man...it's also pretty wonderful. If a fussy baby who won't nap well is my biggest stresser these days, I'm doing okay.

I love this girl to pieces.


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19 comments:

  1. Absolutely gorgeous picture of you two!!

    And your thoughts on teaching are exactly why I'm not sad Mr. RH decided to walk away after student decision. Best decision I think we could have made.

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  2. Being a Mom is hard. Shelby is going through a fussy stage too and I'm not sure what it is. Only thing I can think of is it may be teething. She flips out if she can't see me. She won't sit and play in her exersaucer if she can't see me. She starts crying and jumping up and down to get out. She even bruised her little legs :(

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  3. Love that photo of you two, so cute!

    Your comments on teaching just reaffirmed why I have already told my school that I will not be returning next year. There is NO baby on the way for us, which is what everyone assumes, but I just couldn't handle it anymore. The stress of my job was no longer worth it, and the negative parts have definitely been overshadowing the good for awhile.

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    1. I hate to hear this, because I know you're an AWESOME teacher, and it's sad that because of crazy demands you're leaving a job that you are great at. But I totally get it. I would be pretty shocked if I ever went back as a full time classroom teacher, especially in the public school system.

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  4. I love that picture!

    And you know I wholeheartedly agree with you! There is very little that I miss about teaching-- really, it's mostly the social aspect since I had great coworkers. I especially don't miss the awful parents. Ugh! We are cleaning out our basement and I've decided to give away/ throw out all of my teaching stuff that can't fit in one bin. I just can't imagine ever going back unless I absolutely had to.

    I'm so, so glad you love being a mama. I knew you would! XO

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    1. I knew you would understand what I was talking about :)

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  5. I have not regretted leaving the law firm to work from home once- I know people disagree with this, but having been on both sides of the fence, being a work at home mom is a hell of a lot easier than being a working mom.

    Also, I need to get in front of the camera more! You look so beautiful with your sweet baby girl!

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    1. It's so hard some days, but I'm with you. I don't regret my decision to stay home one bit!

      Also, thank you :) I love this "blog series" because it really encourages me to get in the pictures with her.

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  6. I get this! I was a teacher before I had my son six years ago. My husband is still a teacher, and many of our friends are too, so I still see a lot of what's going on. Sometimes I miss it, and right now they're doing some really awesome things with technology that I think would be fun. Still, I know how much all the rest of that stuff adds up, the not fun stuff, and I wouldn't trade being home for anything.

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  7. That's a great photo of you & your sweet girl! We have also had a hard week around here this week... lots of fussing, lots of crying, very clingy. It's like I've got a completely different baby! His second tooth is about to pop through, so I've blamed it all on that, but we didn't have these kinds of problems with his first tooth, so I'm not 100% sold on that being the only excuse. Ive found myself on the verge of tears many times. It's weeks like this that make me think I'm not patient enough to be a mom, and that I'm not cut out for this job at all.

    While I'd never rejoice in your misfortunes, it makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one dealing with these rough weeks.

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    1. I almost emailed you this week to hear how I was doing! I know we're in a "stormy period" right now with The Wonder Weeks, but man, it's been tough. M got 2 teeth right around Easter, and I don't see any progress on her top 2, so I don't think her fussiness is related to teeth. I'm with you, it definitely helps to know someone else is going through the same thing!

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  8. I don't miss teaching either. We're dealing with the terrible 2's over here even though Landon isn't quite 2 yet. It's rough, but I'd much rather be here dealing with my son's nap fights, tantrums, and whining than teaching at a school. I hated teaching all day and then having to lesson plan, work on report cards, etc. for hours afterwards. I do miss the things you mentioned in your post, but I wouldn't trade my time at home with Landon for anything :)

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  9. Some days I kiss working but most days I love staying home! My girls are only little for a short time!

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  10. Fussy baby here too!! Almost cometely refusing naps but I know she's exhausted :( I cried right along with her today!

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  11. If I could quit teaching today I would. Enjoy your time with your baby watching her grow, and not fussing to get other people's babies to behave. Ugh, the lat two months of school are always a killer, and I am so worn out!

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  12. I'm right there with you, sister, on all accounts. I'm actually working part time nights, but I find that I'm often resentful of the extras that come along with my job because all I actually care about is my home life. Don't get me wrong, I do what I need to do at work, but when I'm home I don't miss it a bit. I'm working to provide my boys with insurance and that's it. My priority and my passion are my home life.

    And, as far as the fussiness goes, Gray is a week older than Maggie, but I guess developmentally on the same page because they had the same due date and he has been difficult this week. I've found myself getting so frustrated with him, then I feel like a jerk. Gray hasn't gotten any teeth yet, and I don't think he's quite there, but something has been off with him. Don't they say that fussiness correlates with some kind of developmental milestone? I'm waiting for a breakthrough any moment now-because mama is tired.

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  13. By the way, this is such a sweet picture of you two. :)

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  14. People ask me if I miss teaching and without missing a beat I say 'NO'! It sometimes makes me sad that I don't miss it because I believe in teaching and teachers SO much, but I don't miss doing it.

    I have told you this before, but I love seeing you so happy at home. My hope for all mommies is that they get to stay home if they want to, or go back to work if they want to.

    Hang in there through these rough days. :)

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  15. I'm so happy that you are so happy with your decision to be at home, even on the really tough days. But this picture of you is just beautiful. Both of you! But you look so pretty and so happy, Rachel!

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